Current mood:	sad
Current music:	Franz Ferdinand - The Dark of the Matinee
Entry tags:	!personal

The fallen are the virtuous among us ... [REGRETS]
I have a lot of regrets; things that I wished had turned out differently, things I wished I'd done, word I'd wished I said - you know, typical stuff. So ...

Dear Younger Self,

Things aren't bad. Stop thinking they are. You don't even know how bad it can get, you selfish, ignorant child. In fact, you still don't. You might want to get a reality check too, current self.

When she said that, you should have said, "Oh, well I like him too." Or you should have made a move, instead of ruminating and (incompletely) convincing yourself that you were delusional. You lost your chance by protecting yourself, just like you ruined things by trying to protect yourself later on. Don't you know that years later, you'll still think of him every once in a while, everytime a song reminds you of him? Don't you know that he'll have changed, and the past will be the past?

Don't date the next guy. It's a bad idea.

Don't worry about the concert. You'll have the time of your life. You'll treasure that one look, that one smile, that one laugh forever.

Love,
Me

Do you think I will ever learn? Do you think I'll regret in the future? But of course. Regrets don't go away. They just change. I need to learn to embrace life, and to stop making bad decisions. That would be awesome.

I still miss you, though everything's changed. I know you don't miss me. Even if things had've worked out differently, I'm sure that fact wouldn't change.